The Uncertain Cost of Commitment

Starting a company, raising children, getting married, or sailing across an ocean all share something in common: their true costs cannot be known in advance. Commitment begins where transactions end.

The Uncertain Cost of Commitment

Earlier this year, before leaving for New Zealand to take possession of Rosemary, I dissolved GenoFAB, Inc., a company I started in 2012. GenoFAB was meant to be a vehicle to bring technology developed in my lab to market.

I always felt that traditional academic metrics — publications, citations — weren't enough to justify a career in research. Research needed to address a real market need. It needed to create jobs, generate revenue, justify itself beyond the university walls. I understand that many academics see it differently, but without trying to bridge that gap, I would have felt like an impostor. That idea is what got me out of bed in the morning. It represented a path to growth — personal and professional.

So I invested in GenoFAB. It happened in stages. I wasn't rigorous about tracking the money at first; I eventually learned to be. I don't really want to know how much I invested in total, but it was significantly more than I should have spent by any reasonable measure.

GenoFAB was not a financial success. But I want to believe there were other outcomes worth accounting for — jobs that gave students experience they couldn't get inside academia, a different vision of the world for me, relationships that still matter. The ledger isn't only financial.

What I know now is that I never really looked at GenoFAB as an investment. An investment is a transaction: bounded cost, defined equity stake, calculable return. GenoFAB was a mission. I pursued it as far as I could.